Tuesday, June 22, 2010

blackholes.

lost in thought; i begin to contemplate the insignificance of us. we are two, very small, very insignificant beings on this planet filled with others just like us. others greater than us. others even more insignificant.

this planet, is insignificant. compared to the other, much larger that also lie in this solar system. not to mention the infinite amount of stars that share this galaxy, this universe. or all of the infinite universes that are beyond our reach. all of the planets unknown.

i feel microscopic.

but isn’t it beautiful, that we found each other?

we may be insignificant in the whole picture. we may not be much. it doesn’t look like much. but we’ve discovered something amazing— i have you. and, you…you have me.

i believe in soul mates. i believe in chemical connections. i believe that everything happens for a reason, and i believe that what’s meant to be will be. you are who you are, and i am who i am, for a reason. and we crossed paths, for a reason. and i was where i was, for a reason, and i came to be where i am now, for a reason. and you were there for a reason, and you are here for a reason. reasons we don’t know, and reasons we cannot control, but it happened. it’s happened, and we can’t do anything about it.

we may be insignificant. but our lives are to be lived, and with meaning. if my only purpose is to love you…

i thank the universe that i found you.

when i grow up...

…i will marry the love of my life.

…i want to have days that we just lie in bed and learn more about each other.

…i want kids.

…i want to live in a cozy, small, two-story home…with a narrow spiral staircase.

…i want to have a secret door.

…i want to have a garden with a big gate.

…i want to feel secure.

and i will not settle for less.

perhaps it's best...

...to keep my world's apart.

collision.

it’s like i have these two completely different universes. both that i love, very much. both that i have these established lives with. both that contain all of these things that are everything to me.

but— this is home.

i feel disaster in the air.